August 25, 2006

“The blog is fried� grieving process

Thank you Tammy!

I got up this morning, checked the stats for and found over 7,000 visitors yesterday, a new record, and 300 by 7AM. So I did a post and then when I went to view the blog itself, I found these words of doom:


The server is temporarily unable to service your request due to the site owner reaching his/her bandwidth limit. Please try again later.


Apache/1.3.37 Server at Port80

The grieving process started at exactly 8:15AM:

Denial and shock: At first, it may be difficult for you to accept the death
It can’t be! Just when I’m starting to get good volume! And I had 53 good comments on one post yesterday! No! No!

Anger: During this stage the most common question asked is "why me?".
Actually, this stage went more like this: AAAARRGHHH!!
$^#&% &%&$*!!! &*%&$* Blogger!!
When given some social support and respect . . .
In a panic, I email several friends who turned out to be at least as clueless as myself. I called another friend who actually makes a living on computer stuff and who turned out to be the same. Then I emailed The Cotillion ladies, and was invited to post there. I reposted the post that got all the traffic this week, A hypotheses on why men's lives are more difficult nowadays.
. . . you will eventually become less angry and able to move into the next stage of grieving.

Bargaining: Many students try to bargain with some sort of diety.
I emailed blogger. Read through the Blogger site to see
1. what the bandwith limits are
2. how to increase them.
Found absolutely nothing. What kind of idiots are they? Shouldn't the purpose of a free site be to entice people to actually buy the product? Is Google making so much money they don't need to SELL??

Guilt: You may find yourself feeling guilty for things you did or didn't do prior to the loss. Forgive yourself. Accept your humanness.
Went to typepad and opened new blog. Should have done it earlier. Reposted the post I had done on Blogger.

Depression: You may at first experience a sense of great loss.
The whole thing is FRIED! FRIED!

Loneliness: As you go through changes in your social life because of the loss, you may feel lonely and afraid.
And all those visitors will never come back! And my links! And the meter! Noooo!

Acceptance: Acceptance does not mean happiness. Instead you accept and deal with the reality of the situation.
So now I'll have to tell everybody about the new address. Peachy.

Hope: Eventually you will reach a point where remembering will be less painful and you can begin to look ahead to the future and more good times.
I"ll blog some more. . . on Monday.

(crossposted here)

Posted by Fausta at August 25, 2006 03:34 PM

Excellent analysis of the grief process! I know how difficult it is to have the exceeded bandwith problem. It leaves one with such a sense of helplessness.

Although, I have no idea what it's like to get anywhere near 7000 hits on my blog!!

All the same - I'm glad you got it fixed!!

Posted by: beth at September 3, 2006 11:53 PM

Thank you Beth,
It leaves one with such a sense of helplessness.
Especially when someone's as clueless as I!

Posted by: Fausta at September 4, 2006 08:09 AM